Yesterday something happened that two years ago would have been the worst possible thing to happen. Today it seems like a distant dream of sorts. Yesterday, a girl I would have given anything to be with got married. It is a funny thing because it is truly the death of a particular dream. No going back.
I’m always thinking about my future self and future situation, I wonder who I will be and what I will be doing. Sometimes I think about my past self and wonder what that self would think about current self. (You tracking?) If my past self would have known what was going to happen yesterday it would have been slightly devastating for him but today its just slightly annoying. Mostly annoying because I’m still single. You can only find so much fulfillment in school, friends, and bikes. Today I am asking my self if I am okay with current self. The truth is that I really am. Sure I wish I had a wife, a fulltime job, a dog, and a sailboat but I know I am where I am supposed to be. In a world where it seems nothing is the way it’s supposed to be, it’s actually quite amazing to know you are in the right place in life. However, it doesn’t mean it is easy to be where you are supposed to be.
Today, I’m in Knoxville, TN for the week visiting my parents over spring break. Its good to be back in Tennessee. I’m sitting in a little coffee shop I like in downtown (coffee and chocolate) listening to Deb Talan (of the weepies) while it snows. It’s good for me soul. A week of Sabbath and rest. She has a song Comfort and it has been one of those songs in my life that restores my sanity and heart when they are faltering. Today my heart is weak and I could listen to this song over and over all day long. There are certain songs in life that connect to you and wont let go. Today those songs are inside of me.
The video is lame but it was the only way to get the song on here that I knew of.
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