Maybe she is interested in an affair or a long bike ride?

I am currently sitting at my favorite Portland Coffee shop, the Albina Press, and am drinking a cup of earl grey tea. Over my month in Portland I have come to the realization that the girls in the North West are not quite as pretty as southern girls. This is obviously a disappointment being that I now live in the North West. But I must say that there is a girl in Albina who is challenging my assumption. But hey who knows she could be from the south… but I say all this to get to my point. I have been staring at her for the past hour formulating a plan to talk to her. So I am watching her as she lifts her very pretty hand to brush her very pretty hair out of her very pretty face and that is when I saw it, a ring with a diamond the size of an m&m mini. Also that is when it hit me. I have to worry about girls being married not just whether they have a boy friend but now a husband. How old am I? I just have these moments every so often when I realize that I am a sudo grown up… and it weirds me out. I am 23 and I understand that I am still really young but I don’t know. I feel like I should be more accomplished or something. I am a college graduate and pursuing my graduate degree but I just don’t feel like that is enough. It’s like I am hungry for the chains of life. (job, wife, cat, and bills) I am relatively free to do what ever I want and I seemingly can’t enjoy my freedom. The grass is always greener, right? Well I refuse to be unhappy. I am healthy, somewhat affluent (thanks to my parents) and nothing is standing in my way to live a full life now. Why must I constantly be looking to the things and dreams to come? Not that those dreams and hopes are bad but if I am so captivated by those I will miss the now and one day I am going to regret it.


Speaking of freedom I went on a 25-mile bike ride yesterday. I have started my training for the cycle ride of my life. Two of my best friends and I are taking this next year to plan a cycling trip of epic proportions. Our first plan was to ride across the U.S.A from Astoria to Rhode Island and then we realized if we rode 90-miles a day it would take us two months. So seeing that we don’t have two months free in our lives we are searching for a route that will provide fulfillment of our dream in about a month’s time. So like I said I rode 25-miles yesterday and it was pretty tough. So I have a bit of a way to go to say the least. I also have to challenge my diet. I am in love! Not with the girl in the Albina or we another human but a pastry. A pastry known as the chocolate muffin!!! The choco muffin only masquerades as a muffin when in fact it is CAKE! I have eaten six in the last week alone… this will not due. I am afraid I am going to have to cut it out of my diet cold turkey. Now I shall just enjoy asparagus instead.

Now the pretty married girl has put on glasses and has successfully made me more upset. Maybe she is rich and that is just a really fancy purity ring…

Currently Listening: Kings of Leon – Only By The Night
Currently Contemplating: Bishop Desmond Tutu’s and Truth and Reconciliation Commission (South Africa)