space.

I really want to write something amazing for you to read but really I have nothing amazing to say at the moment, which seems to be the norm. Sorry. I have stories to tell I am sure but when I make my way to write them down they float away and leave me with nothing but a mediocre youtube video to post. My mind is full these days. Mostly due to the Greek intensive that I am taking. I am squeezing a years worth of Koine Greek into a 10 week quarter. I am learning though.

I am sitting listening to a Christmas band called The choir at your door. It is doing things to my insides, as good music combined with good weather and a lonely heart often does. Good music for me always intensifies the longings in my life. I remember friends that I have not been able to see in a long time. and how much i miss them. i would love to sit with them so very badly. I remember family and how our time here is so limited and that I am so far away. It is hard to be away from those you love the most. I think of the things to come. excited. scared. All the feelings of life.

Its a gift to feel. it really is. even when it hurts. I spend most of my time trying to feel and not be so numb to the blessings and gifts that have so graciously flooded my life. I want to feel it all. To simply experience the moments of now. Looking ahead is good but if it is our only focus we miss out on so much. I am pretty good at that. I am always wanting the next step and not embracing the current. Its a flaw. I'm working on it.

my mind/experiences this week:
love
and how its so hard
cross country bike rides
Cornel West
custom drum kits
cute girl
(trying to make this low on my list of priorities... not working)
idolatry
Pasadena Acts 29 church plant
third declensions
those on the underside of power
and my apathy
hell and how I hate it
my church interview this week
john piper and eschatology
doughnuts
backstage at David Crowder/Francis Chan
building a fixed gear
Jones coffee roasters
starting a band
peace
my apathy
sailing

Romans 15:13
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.